moments

sitting here pondering, what am i going to write about. i look around me at all the amazing little things. there's birds chirping. a gentle breeze to keep the heat from us. the sunshine on my back. somehow, i've waited for this for a long time. to be able to sit outside and just write. i know it sounds crazy. but everyone has there thing that they love to do ...and this just happens to be mine. now only if i had the ocean infront of me. the waves crashing against the beach and water stretching on for miles ...till you can see it anymore. maybe one day. but for now my deck and hudson bay mountain is fine.
last week, my sister amanda, wrote in her blog about the moments that we capture throughout life. sometimes i wonder, when i'm doing something that means so much to me... am i going to remember this moment?? is it going to be one of those memories? what about the things i don't want to remember but they're stuck in my head --most of the time called regrets. i always wanted to live life with no regrets, and no mistakes. but are the things in high school that i am doing now, going to affect my judgement later in life? so many questions that are left unanswered, until we can figure out the answers with what the future holds. so many childhood memories, that i don't want to forget.
imagine this. one day your driving home from a long day at work, and its night time. and a drunk driver runs a red light and hits your car, hard enough to give you a concusion and you permanelty lose all of those memerories and the moments that you had captured in your mind--gone and erased forever. what would you do?? would you make people help you remember? it would drive me crazy to not remember. but then you would have a chance to start over. if you had regrets you wouldn't remember them. if you had enemies, you wouldn't know who they are. i guess they say, to look at the glass half full instead of half empty.
it is so important to remember the things that mean so much to us --memeories and moments. i'm only sixteen, so i'm pretty sure i'm gonna have a lot more to come. pretty soon though my brain might just go on overload of memories. sometimes we may have to buy things, make things, or do things to help us remember those memories and those moments. there's this song by emerson drive called moments. its one of those songs that when listened by others, it makes their hard heart soften. "I've had my moments, days in the sun. Moments I was second to none. Moments when I knew I did what I thought I couldn't do" My moments ...made memories.
well the sun has now gone down and the sky is a pale blue but by the mountains there is a pink array of beauty with a touch of yellow. and the misquitoes have came out and they like to eat you alive. so i'll stay indoors and watch from inside staying warm. the beauty's this life brings... enjoy the summer.